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I write things down in my phone that I want to journal. Then a year later I finally do something about it. It goes as follows:

 

 

October 2012
"I got stuck sleep because it was too dark in my bedroom" Bridger

 

February 2013
"Rechargeries" Bridger's name for rechargeable batteries.

 "Rememberies" Bridger's name for memories that he remembers.

 

 

Starting November 2013 and going older:

 "Are we going to be sleepovering?" Bridger when we were going to spend the night at Nana and Poppy's

 "Panacakes" Bridger's term for pancakes

"Are we going to get our tires inspectated?" Bridger when we needed to get our tires inspected and rotated.

 

"You're my best fairy friend love Natalynn. Do you know if Carol has a tooth fairy? Her mom says she is her tooth fairy." A note Natalynn left for the toothfairy. The toothfairy left chalk and a note outside on the sidewalk. So Natalynn wrote back on the driveway.

 

"I know what I want for Christmas is my tooth is not out. I want Santa to punch me so my tooth falls out." Natalynn

 

Natalynn was so brave when she got her teeth pulled. She was clearly scared to go in but she didn't resist. She squeezed her leg then She held my hand so tight. Those teeth were so long! When it didn't hurt she was so surprised!

 

"How do you get money from the government?" Bridger... yep he lives in the age of mooching and he's catching on already.

 

"Natalynn come on up. I promise I'm not trying to trick ya...well actually I am." Bridger. Gotta love his honesty!

 

"I wish I had a REAL imaginary friend" Bridger

 

Bridger was very sleepy one morning and not physically or mentally quick. He said, "I'm just a little slow." He meant physically but he was so slow to understand my request it made it so funny. He got upset when I started laughing.

 

"No I said u. You don't really have the right mind. I know I said u and o." Bridger. We were having a discussion on letters for some reason. I thought it hilarious when he said I don't have the right mind.

 

Natalynn gave Bridger a remote control helicopter for his birthday. We warned him that they break easily. It lasted for months! One day Natalynn did something clearly not careful and broke it. Brigham got so mad. He yelled at her. Bridger was so kind. He forgave her and spoke so sweetly to her. It reminded me of how my dad was so nice to me when I broke his blue print machine.

 

Bridger is very aware of how much tv he watches and how it makes him feel when he watches to much.

 

He also had some very mature feelings and understands others feelings and the reasons behind those feelings.

March 2013
B: Why do you and mom get to go to bed later than us?
N: Because they take more naps

 

A: Bridger, come get your apple
B: No you bring it here
A: What!? Who do you think I am?
B: (giggling) A robot who brings things to us!

 

October 29 2013
"oh Natalynn, you always have to make yourself think that I steal your stuff" Bridger said to himself when Natalynn was at school when he found her lost item in the dollhouse

"Mom, can I have a stapler? how would you feel if I had two staplers and you had none?" Bridger

4 Weeks after surgery.

Watch every movement. Hold in every sneeze. Before a stretch comes on, tighten stomach muscles so you can tame the stretch. Those suckers hurt. Don't scratch your back. Don't reach to the side funny (oh, you put the cell phone down in the wrong spot? Gotta get up, no twisting or reaching over). Don't sit down quickly. Step softly. Don't stop breathing when it hurts. The feeling of a 10 pound weight on your lungs is not real. And stop thinking about how badly you want to squeeze those precious kids-ain't gonna happen. Don't open that sliding door, or plug in that appliance. Fast-forward romantic scenes. When thirsty for milk, rejoice that the jug is half empty. Don't look in the mirror after your shower. Don't think about how your husband is ever going to be attracted to you again. Feel like letting it all out with a good cry? Don't. There is no acceptable release.

Dream about feet hitting pavement. Breathing hard, watching the world fly by. You're going to be able to run for the first time in your life! (As soon as that @#!% sternum stops popping.) I think cussing is common, but in this case, it feels so good. Maybe that's why this is taking so long. I need to learn to be patient and thankful. "Come what may and love it"

Guess what? You can help! Stop complaining about your perfect lives! It's making me want to scream. If I ever complain about a stomach bug, or bad weather, or not getting my shopping done, or how long it takes to curl my hair, go ahead and rip open my chest again to remind me to appreciate the little inconveniences. Your boyfriend treats you bad? Leave him! Don't like the snow? Move! Don't want to catch a cold? Don't leave your house! Just STOP complaining!

And yet, here I am complaining about what could be trivial to some. What I have is not terminal or chronic. My kids are healthy. My family is forever. What could be better than that? I am lucky. My life is still perfect. My Savior lives and loves me.

3 weeks after surgery.

A couple of days ago I thought this was the longest couple of weeks of my life. But now I'm starting to settle in to this lazy mode. I worry I may never come out of it. I've forgotten how to work. We might have to hire a house keeper/nanny.

Up until now

The fun things my kids have said and done up until now, from oldest to newest:

"A perfect idea just came up to my brain!" -Bridger

"Thank you for waking me up to go potty. I don't want to pee in my new sheets." -Bridger

"What rhymes with pancake? Mancake!" -Bridger (I'll take one of those)

Natalynn was eating one of my mismashed casserole dinners where I just put random foods together. She picked up a piece of food with her fork and said, "what's this? Oh well, it's in here so it must be an ingredient." She has such trust in me and my scary cooking.

"it's called a run jump" -Bridger, when explaining what leap year is, he remembered the term a little differently.

Bridger calls maroon Ramoon

"I love you more than anyone has ever loved their mom" -Natalynn

Natalynn really enjoys her piano lessons. She earns prizes from her teacher for practicing. She almost always gets something for her brother too, although I've never asked her to.

Bridger wanted to learn to jump rope so she decided to give him lessons every Tuesday and after his first lesson she gave him a prize. They have since forgotten to do this.

Bridger loves to style his hair. He gets it wet and does lots of interesting hair styles. One day he comes to me all excited and says, "it's like a cupcake with frosting on top!" Indeed, it was like swirly frosting.

"Oh! My nose is itchy. Maybe some germs were biting it." -Bridger

3 Weeks

A couple of days ago I thought this was the longest couple of weeks of my life. But now I'm starting to settle in to this lazy mode. I worry I may never come out of it. I've forgotten how to work. We might have to hire a house keeper/nanny.

Frustration

Does forgetting for a split second ruin a week's worth of healing? I let the dog out, open the sliding door, pull too hard, too fast, and now I'm back to square one. Well, not quite, but it just feels like I'm not healing as fast as I should be.  I'm no good at being a cripple. I feel like I'm wasting the efforts of my family and friends who do so much for us.

Two weeks!

I'm so happy to be done with my first two weeks. The shifting of bone against bone is gone. Pain is under control. Everything is great! In two weeks I'll be able to lift a whopping 10 pounds! That's pretty much anything in the kitchen and laundry. I'm excited to not be a burden.

I'm actually feeling good today. I've had some bad days, but today was great. I went to my first cardiac rehab appointment. It felt so good to exercise again! Although they made me go slow and only work my legs. It still felt good

I want to give a big thanks to everyone who has helped us. This time of year is so busy for everyone, but especially for Brigham. His workload at UPS during the holidays is crazy and he's had deadlines at his architectural job too. Thank you for everything!!!